Hey there, it’s been a while since I last posted something for you all to read.
I’m going places more than ever, feeling emotions more than ever, and I have also been to therapy lately, four times already.Every time I come back, it touches something inside me that I have ignored for a really long time.So, you can imagine that it’s overwhelming me.I’m being kind to myself by giving myself some space to allow this to grow within me.
And I’m transforming old patterns into new ones.I’m so comfortable with most of my patterns that it takes a lot to change them.But I will make some steps in a new direction.There have been some major shifts within myself.
I’m going through some uncomfortable situations and feeling whatever there is to be felt.There is confusion, and I’m reinventing who I thought I was.Maybe it sounds a little abstract for you to read, but I’m not ready yet to give out details about my process while I’m still figuring myself out.
The therapy I’m attending is a holistic group therapy, which I avoided before because I wasn’t ready for it.But now it’s time, I feel like, and the people in my group are like mirrors for me to reflect myself.It’s beautiful and confronting at the same time.
A few months back, I was struggling with some old, bad habits that I realized were destructive to myself.I was also hiding my feelings for way too long, not acknowledging what I feel in my body.It’s still not easy to face it and give room to what truly lives inside me, including my deep desires that I never listened to because of a way of survival and the opinions of other people that held me in a cage.
Afterwards, I can tell that I’ve become more free with it, but it’s still a challenge to work with.It’s a journey where I find my values again and can see my worth more than ever.I find what I really deserve and don’t be so hard on myself.I’m working on it to open myself up and find love, which is one of my most deep and important desires.So far so good, I feel loved but still searching for the one that can be my world.
Much love Brian from story and footsteps ✨♥️💫
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